The Fear of the Lord

Well its been longer than its normally been since I have been on my blog. I don\’t know if that\’s a good thing or but I am here now. Its hard to believe that I havent been and when you start to forget what you wrote about last time it really has been too long. I think I said that once before on my blog. Guess the things that I tell myself aren\’t important enough to me to change. Well I hope that\’s past tense because some great things are happening and I am seeking God. I hope he keeps…wait I know he will be there for me and take care of the things that are burdening my mind.

Well let\’s see. I have had alot of stuff since my last blog. Part of the reason I think that I was away longer was because my birthday was last week or two weeks ago and my fiance got a ps3 for me. I have been playing it like crazy and that may be part of why I have been off. I have gotten engaged and this time it is different in so many ways. I wont get into that now. They have cancelled the basketball season for the rest of the semester and I find out tomorrow if I have a job after this. Its just been a crazy week.I have my silas close to me now and we get an opportunity to meet every week and we have also started reading proverbs. We didn\’t miss the first week of doing it and the second week is starting out to be a good one. This is re first time in a while that I have actually been able to blog/pick a part a passage that impacted me and what I learned. Its nothing big but its pretty close to a first really dive in. I mean I didn\’t use commentaries or anything just kinda what I realized after reading with purpose and praying. Its also in proverbs so it\’s pretty straight forward but I still think its cool.

Since the beginning of guys group I have been talking about the fear of God with Casey and Scott. The fear of God is something that I struggle with day in and day out. I talk about it to other believers and blog about it all the time. The fear of God is almost like a theme for my life. Well the complete opposite if your talking about a title that describes it. Anyways I have been brought back to trying to picture God as Asland and being scared shit less (thanks to casey), but I have realized through reading this simple book of proverbs that its alot easier than that. Although the lion is frickin scary, it just gets more scary when you apply what I am about to open up on you.

Proverbs 2:1-6 TNIV

My son, if you accept my words

and store up my commands within you,

turning your ear to wisdom

and applying your heart to understanding—

indeed, if you call out for insight

and cry aloud for understanding,

and if you look for it as for silver

and search for it as for hidden treasure,

then you will understand the fear of the Lord

and find the knowledge of God.

So simple. Accepted – Search – Listen – Apply – Demand – Store (memorize I think) That\’s what he is telling me to do. I feel kinda clique because it\’s like the 6 points of a sermon. That\’s it. If you want to fear God. If I want to fear God that\’s what I must do. Accept you, search the scripture and my life for you. When I find that stuff listen to it and apply it. Demand more of it like seconds at the dinner table. And then never forget it and every time that I waiver open up that storage unit of my spiritual journey and remember.

Wow God is so amazing when I am not. I stress and he says I got it man. I worry and he laughs. I screw up and he picks me up. Time and time again. God help me to follow you. Help me to seek you and long for more of you and ten when I come out of it I will fear you. Like the powerful lion that sits in the corner of my eye. Its crazzy to cuz if you look at the letters to those 6words they are awfully close to asland. Hmmm…