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Flat and Green

They are beginning to look like dollar signs. I am not sure if this is a good or a bad thing, or if it is a me problem or a them problem. A year ago, engaging with every person that came in was enjoyable. Two months ago, when the driveway alarm sounded, my eyes retreatedContinue reading “Flat and Green”

It’s a Girl

A good friend of mine expressed his disappointment in the news received from the doctor. It’s a girl. Him and his son weeped in sadness for half of an hour. This response is understandable if you know the amount of built up hope and expectation. This is a difficult one for me. Maybe because IContinue reading “It’s a Girl”

Sand Castles and Rain Storms

Every so often I get a word picture in my head. Yesterday was Chuck’s birthday and this morning I was reflecting on the current state of the relationship. Which is to say there isn’t one. This is the result of no expectations. I have none for him and he has none for me. For theContinue reading “Sand Castles and Rain Storms”

36 Missed Opportunities

I am sitting in the office of a mini golf course, feeling gratitude. The gratitude is due to the contrast I see between those who are connected and those who are not. My wife sent me two pictures in the last few days. One picture was of her and my daughter playing the board gameContinue reading “36 Missed Opportunities”

Chuck a Goat

Every Monday I get to meet for a Bible study with some good friends, well not just good, they are some of the best I have. This morning Jose and I had decided ahead of time to read the account of the Israelites being delivered from the hand of Pharaoh. We both recently had majorContinue reading “Chuck a Goat”

Smart People Don’t Pray

I recently wrote a chapter subtitle that said, “hiding offers a reward no one gets.” I am hiding. I cannot deny that fact. I am good at it. Pretending. Blending in so people forget I exist. It comes with its problems. People actually forget you exist. The squeaky wheel gets the oil, the barking dogContinue reading “Smart People Don’t Pray”

Depressant Medicine

Gratitude – the quality of being thankful; readiness to show appreciation for and to return kindness. Thankful – pleased and relieved. This is an interesting thing. Gratitude, in my mind, has always felt like acceptance. My father handed down a punishment that I was supposed to accept, like it was the end. However, on my way into work, IContinue reading “Depressant Medicine”

The Email With No Punch Pulled

The Farm Bureau Papers A Future Vision from the Past “It is not the critic who counts: not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles or where the doer of deeds could have done better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred byContinue reading “The Email With No Punch Pulled”

My Boss Wants Me to Lie to Him

I have a problem. I need a real fake smile. There are a handful of people that I am not able to hide my disapproval. It is usually a big neon sign that shouts “I DON’T LIKE WHAT YOU ARE SAYING,” or “YEAH, I AM NOT DOING THAT.” This is usually a hindrance to myContinue reading “My Boss Wants Me to Lie to Him”

The Right Yes Man

The morning felt like a stubborn car in the middle of winter. A planner overflowed with undone tasks, and the mind buzzed with many yet to be written down. There’s a particular enjoyment when a coworker calls my name, requesting a fix or a solution to a problem. It serves a dual purpose: distraction fromContinue reading “The Right Yes Man”