It is kinda frustrating for me as I sit back and listen to what \”guys group\” has become in the last year since I have left. I don\’t write this to blame because there is not anyone to blame. I don\’t right this to try and figure out where it went wrong because those of us that are seasoned veterans know why it has turned the way it has. I write this out of frustration. I don\’t even know why I am frustrated but I am. I think that it has alot to do with the conversation that I had with C and then the arrival of a facebook group called guys group. I don\’t know who created it but I do know of alot guys that I can cancel out. It is not the facebook group itself that annoys me but why it was created. I don\’t know maybe I am way of my rocker but I don\’t think so. I really don\’t get why. So we can post touching videos? So we can write about drama in our life, like when a coworker talk about me behind my back or if my fiance… ugh. Shoot me! Get a silas. Now serious pray requests, or just to see a history of those come and gone okay. Other than that, why? I think we have missed the point of guys group. It\’s not about a group, it\’s about brothers. It\’s about living my life right along side someone else. A brother. I remember when it was called \”four\”for\” brothers.
I think the accurate picture of this was and is seen in the relationship is had with C and S and now what S has with C. It\’s a relationship and a life liven together. And I am not talking metaphorically. I am talking literally. So I just read Acts 16 17 and part of 18 and found what I though was there. The relationship between Paul and Silas was alot like what we as christian men should have. They lived their lives together and I think C, S and I did it on accident/ purpose with how we have interacted and because I was at church all the time and S and C work at the same place it makes it convenient to live their lives together. I find it a little harder with E because we often only see each other once a week and I don\’t talk to him as much as I should be and therefore this model of a relationship is not accurate to what Paul and silas had.
Well I went off about random crap and I guess I just had to get that nonsense of my chest even though I prolly made no sense. Whatever.
Maybe I am just being arrogant. I don\’t know if am just really frustrated with these other guys who have sat in a safe place where they can get real with who God is and just don\’t get it and don\’t change. Make me wonder if Micah even listened to the video here posted online. I don\’t know why you are showing it off, he is talking about you. Okay enough. I am done.
The last couple of days in have done more digging into God\’s word than I have been and I am really intrigue by the relationship aspect of Christianity. I wonder how many people have \”gotten\” it and don\’t even realize they are living it. I had it in New York and I am slowly gaining it back out here. I must be patient while the relationship grows and understand that time will come. I had the free time in new york to spend in C \’s office and I don\’t have that time out here but I also think that I must realize that its not just face to face time. I send probably 200 texts on a good day. Why can\’t I have a daily conversation with E. Why must I settle for face when technology is so accessible? Paul would have had a droid and he would have tweeted his status and texted silas to tell him what was going down. I can do that. It\’s not hard to stay in touch.
I am having fun reading about Paul and Silas. Its kinda weird that I haven\’t put much time into their story before when I was trying to mimic them. God has a great way with timing. Perfect in all its ways.
God help to better prioritise my life. Help me to spend time in the areas that are important to you and help me to cut out where I waste. Clean up my mind as well. Alot of the time that I waste is day dreaming and in my thoughts. Help me to think wisely and help me to stop it early. I feel like that stupid wolf with the double edged sword my tongue is numb and I want to stop licking my own blood.
Rambo
Nos & Rehtaf, Dnabsuh 
Hey Authentic, be more in my face…that is my challenge to you…I am reading this now—I think I get it. I know we are far from what you had \”back in your old group\” I don't want you to get the impression that I am too good or don't need you or this is one-sided because it definitely isn't the case. I certainly need this as much as you do. Or maybe I don't get it at all. I feel like you feel like you are imposing on me because you hesitate to reach out…or we cannot make it work. Technology has certainly made us \”should\” all over ourselves when it comes to getting together. I also know or understand that you still have some amazing brothers to reach out to that haven't disappeared and the great ones never do. Not that I expect to replace…I am honored to get the opportunity to meet you and make no mistake, I believe God did this on-purpose and there are no coincidences. This is only the beginning of something great! I am excited to meet the rest of the group…and am certainly excited and intrigued as to what I can learn from you all…thank you for including me and again, I challenge you to feel free to press and communicate with me more often than we have. No excuses right!? Love the Silas comments…I think technology is another way (other than the FB group you referred to) to be at arms length from the authenticity of brotherhood you speak of—it also does some amazing things in connecting people that are hundreds of miles apart. Casting your net in a bigger way! Anyway, I am always humbled by HIM, I appreciate you and the others I have yet have the privilege to meet. -E
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Yes I totally agree! I don't want to totally write them off either. I am glad you are my Silas.
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A lot of it has to do with my last blog post. Same words, different language. The big thing to remember though, is that I don't think these guys are rejecting something awesome, they don't realize what it is, and worse yet, they think they have it. I don't want to write them off, maybe they'll get there, maybe… Either way though, the words \”Get a Silas\” will forever be in my mind. Awesome!
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