At Battles End

So I said about to months ago, \”welcome back Joel\” and what a cocky thing to say because I was as far from back as i could have possibly have been. I really don\’t have any excuse for the time that i have spent away from my blog. Reason, i would say that it was because i had a lack of motivation and flat out laziness. There were plenty of opportunities that i had to sit down and express what i was learning with God but my lazy butt found any opportunity to ignore the strong pull till now.

Over the last two month, i am not sure if it was just plain laziness or what but i was totally stuck on Psalms 6. It has intrigued me as well as hit home in every situation that i have been in over the last two months. You can understand where i get the title from if you read it as though you are saying these words to God.

Psalm 6:1-10 (NIV)
O Lord, do not rebuke me in your anger or discipline me in your wrath. [2] Be merciful to me, Lord, for I am faint; O Lord, heal me, for my bones are in agony. [3] My soul is in anguish. How long, O Lord, how long? [4] Turn, O Lord, and deliver me; save me because of your unfailing love. [5] No one remembers you when he is dead. Who praises you from the grave ? [6] I am worn out from groaning; all night long I flood my bed with weeping and drench my couch with tears. [7] My eyes grow weak with sorrow; they fail because of all my foes. [8] Away from me, all you who do evil, for the Lord has heard my weeping. [9] The Lord has heard my cry for mercy; the Lord accepts my prayer. [10] All my enemies will be ashamed and dismayed; they will turn back in sudden disgrace.

I just picture my self at the end out every battle that i have with satan saying these words to God. The first part of the chapter is that point at which the battle has just ended. I am exhausted from fighting my guts out, trying to catch my breathe. I am face down on my belly, dirt on my face, gun in my hand and i look up and see God standing tall and majestic. Then i cry out to him in a plea of desperation to be merciful to me. To deliver me. I plead my case to him and praise him for who he is and what he can do.

I think that the end of this chapter is what gets me hyped tho. The beginning is like this plea for help and forgiveness and i relate really well but then it hits with the encouraging part. He hears my cry and he accepts my prayer. Thats crazy. The picture to me i think is the coolest part for me. I can just imagine my self being in actual war and fighting till i have nothing left and then Jesus comes trotting in on his white horse to safe the day all because he heard my cry and accepts my prayer. What a great feeling. It kinda goes well with the question i posted on Facebook. \”If you knew that you would never fail, how much more would you do?\”

Hopefully i get back into my routine of reading your words and letting other people know how amazing you are to me God.