So I really haven\’t been as consistent as i would like to be with reading but for some reason i am stuck in Psalms and I can\’t seem to get out. I have tried to read other passages but none seem to really grip me like what I have been reading in the psalms. Lately I have been struggling with over eating and on top of that eating crap. Fast food for most of my meals and snacking 3 or 4 times a day. As of two days ago it has really been effecting me in bad ways. I become more depressed when I over eat because i am not in the shape that i would like to be in and the more depressed I get the more that I eat. It tends to go into a vicious circle. God is amazing tho with the people that he puts in your life. People that really care about you and want to help you reach goal. My wife is a huge support for me in most areas and with the eating thing she has really encouraged me in the last few days. It goes beyond looking good for me though. There is this sense of control that I think that i have over something. Its this illusion of control that plagues my thoughts with rotten rationale.
Like i mentioned before i have time after time found myself falling into psalms every time i crack open the bible and this time the lion theme popped out at me. I have had numerous victories with this concept that God loves to throw at me. Both as Him as the lion and as sin devouring us.
Psalm 7:1-2 (NIV)
Lord my God, I take refuge in you; save and deliver me from all who pursue me, [2] or they will tear me apart like a lion and rip me to pieces with no one to rescue me.
Its a short little snippet of the chapter but it is the main piece that pretty much jumped out at me. I can just imagine being caught in a pack of hungry lions. Your on a safari and you have a gun and you get separated from your group and find yourself in the middle of 6 angry hunger lions. What could possible be the outcome to this scenario? I can pretty much only think of one. You Die! I mean for me I wouldn\’t just turn around and take it. I would put up some sort of a fight. But on the real, how long do you really think you could last? Two minutes? Five minutes? Probably no longer. The connection is pretty much spot of with how sin impacts our lives. A multitude of sin surrounds us every day and its just a matter of time before we are just torn to little bitty pieces. Now i can see me lasting a little longer and with my brothers at my side fighting the fight with me but the truth is that God must be there too.
I have addressed part of this verse and the second thing that hit me pretty good was that it is a matter of surrender. I must surrender my self to him. Maybe it goes even farther than that. I think when i read the first part of that verse i see a picture of me hiding behind God as he fights the lions of by himself. Its a comforting feeling knowing that we can take refuge in an awesome God and that he has major plans for our lives.
God help me to take refuge in your presents and not try fight off everything by myself but surrender to you and let you save me from being devoured by whiplash, food, money and things. Fight them for me.
– Rambo
Nos & Rehtaf, Dnabsuh 