Wikipedia Humility

I dont know what…well i do know what it is lately that has been keeping me from blogging/reading my bible. Business. I have so much crap to do and then when i do have time to sit down and read i spend my time playing bejeweled or watching the office. I am so annoyed with myself sometimes with the decisions that i have been making that it is being to really cloud my mind when I have my job to do. I think that i have wasted the last three days and really havent done anything. It almost feels like an out of body experience. It is not me.

I have been searching through the bible trying to read something that impacts my life but like trying to bare hand a fish I feel the impact wiggling out of my hand. Its crazy after I started writing I stop to glance back at the bible and see if something punched me. Like someone jumping out from a hidden place it got me. I have heard this verse preached many times before and alot of the time its like used as a scare tactic for high schoolers to stop sinning. Even for adults it is often used to scare.

1 Peter 5:5-9 (NIV)Young men, in the same way be submissive to those who are older. All of you, clothe yourselves with humility toward one another, because, \”God opposes the proud but gives grace to the humble.\” [6] Humble yourselves, therefore, under God\’s mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. [7] Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you. [8] Be self-controlled and alert. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. [9] Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know that your brothers throughout the world are undergoing the same kind of sufferings.

The part that got me was not the Lion part, although still very scary. The part was the humility part. Not the way that I have primarily viewed this was that you arent to brag. Like someone that is humble does not complain, or tell people how good they are or what they can do. Even Wikipedia defines it as this quality of being modesty and respectful. Although I totally agree with this definition I also believe that it lacks greatly.

For men and my self especially I think this is a tough word. I think that we are okay with the wikipedia definition. We can for the most part handle being modest and respectful. Some men can help but ooze thier masculinity but for the most part some men can handle wikipedia humility. Sadly this is how I have really taken hold of this humility piece. I think i have even gone to the lengths of blogging about it in the past, but I regretfully have fell short in the extent of defining it.

After reading this passage I have come to realize in my own mind that humility is surrender. Its this attitude of I am too weak, too stupid, too immature, too small to defeat anything. Its not just a surrender to God either. Its a surrender to everything. This is \”forbrothers\” that surrender it opening up ever fault, every mistake, every task that is done. We take way too much pride in our accomplishments and rarely if ever do it by ourselves. Men hate giving credit to other people and God. I am the ring leader. In our society humility is weakness. It is not a required skill set. Movies portray a buff do it all by my self hero. Society frowns upon failure. It makes me upset to see great successful leaders crumble because they tried to do it alone. Joe Paterno.

I don\’t want to be wikipedia humble. I want to be 1 Peter 5 humble. God help me to have the humility that you desire. Help me to hand everything over to you. Help me to realize that i am nothing with out you. Help me to help other realize that too. We need to become confident in our God not our selfs. Thats true humility.