I know nothing about the Sabbath day. I know that in the Ten Commandments that God\’s says,
8 “Remember the Sabbath day by keeping it holy. 9 Six days you shall labor and do all your work, 10 but the seventh day is a sabbath to the LORD your God. On it you shall not do any work, neither you, nor your son or daughter, nor your male or female servant, nor your animals, nor any foreigner residing in your towns. 11 For in six days the LORD made the heavens and the earth, the sea, and all that is in them, but he rested on the seventh day. Therefore the LORD blessed the Sabbath day and made it holy.
I sat through a sermon the other day where the guy was killed by ministry. He was so busy and scheduled things all the time that literally the ministry killed him. He talked about one time not seeing his family for 3 weeks. He would get home after they went to bed and he left before they got up. Then he mentioned that he went 6 months without a day off. Now I am not claiming to be nearly that bad but that is the trap that is set. Those are famous last words… “I am not nearly that bad”.
I am constantly yelled at and feel miserable because my wife is constantly upset because I am doing work or I am away on basketball trips or what not. I struggle because I really don’t think that I am working that much but I just stopped to calculate my hours and “it is not bad” but I have worked 181 hours in three weeks of this month. A normal forty hour a week yields 160 hours a month. Well that’s a bit of an eye opener. Plus I didn’t count the stuff I do from home or anything of that matter.
I am failing at resting. Over the last 3 weeks I have only had 2 days where I did no “work” related things. It is so hard for me to think that I am not over working myself because I feel like I am not doing that much work. Hours in my mind don’t mean anything because part of my job is basketball but I guess I should be treating that as work. I am getting to the point now where I am almost burned out. It has only been a year and a half tops. I think part of it is my wife. I feel guilty every time I have a long trip and it has started to make me resent her in some ways and I hate that feeling. And it’s just hard for me to just not care how she feels.
If I am doing this work for you God why is it so difficult. Why are so many doubts bombarding me and why do I feel so insecure about what I am trying to do. Am I really where God wants me? I don’t know.
I am getting to that point as well where I haven’t been in my word enough that I am close to God. My back is turned to him. He has never left but it is me that has turned to do my own thing for a while. I have been randomly reading around lately but nothing has popped out. I need to be more intentional with my time with God. When I look at the time I spend with work and then the time I spend with God it is stupid. It is probably like 200-1. I spend more time watching TV then I do even thinking about reading or pursuing. It is not easy and I know the battle is tough. I need to come from the corner where I was hiding and back out to the front lines. Help me not to get discouraged. I dont know that what this post turned into but it started out with work.
Nos & Rehtaf, Dnabsuh 
Thanks man!!! That helps alot!
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Man, I have been here. Early in my time at Calvary. I never said no. Candi got frustrated. I added kids, but didn't cut back and so it got worse. There is a balance. Some ministry wives don't understand the ministry side of things, they want their husbands to be able to punch out and not do anything. They don't realize that there is no punch out in ministry. On the other hand, there are guys in ministry (and I did this to a degree) who don't understand that just as God called them to ministry, he called them to husband their wives too. I had to prioritize my wife, and I would've saved some trouble if I'd done it earlier. So it's a balance issue. You have to start with yourself and ask yourself if you're demonstrating to her that she is important to you. Make some time, do special things, show that you are willing to work for her, just like you are at your ministry.
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