Well I am at work and this is probably not the thing I should be doing but I am weak spiritually right now. Recently I have been back to where I was before I spoke with my buddy on that one morning. I think I mentioned yesterday that when I reached the state that I am in I revert back to proverbs where it seems to all come together and make sense. It calms me and sets me on the right path. Last night It took me a few minutes to fall asleep and in that time I thought to myself that translating proverbs one into today’s issues and problems would be a great exercise for me. I think I will wait before I do that.
20 Out in the open wisdom calls aloud, she raises her voice in the public square; 21 on top of the wall[d] she cries out, at the city gate she makes her speech 22 “How long will you who are simple love your simple ways? How long will mockers delight in mockery and fools hate knowledge? 23 Repent at my rebuke! Then I will pour out my thoughts to you, I will make known to you my teachings. 24 But since you refuse to listen when I call and no one pays attention when I stretch out my hand, 25 since you disregard all my advice and do not accept my rebuke, 26 I in turn will laugh when disaster strikes you; I will mock when calamity overtakes you— 27 when calamity overtakes you like a storm, when disaster sweeps over you like a whirlwind, when distress and trouble overwhelm you. 28 “Then they will call to me but I will not answer; they will look for me but will not find me, 29 since they hated knowledge and did not choose to fear the LORD. 30 Since they would not accept my advice and spurned my rebuke, 31 they will eat the fruit of their ways and be filled with the fruit of their schemes. 32 For the waywardness of the simple will kill them, and the complacency of fools will destroy them; 33 but whoever listens to me will live in safety and be at ease, without fear of harm.”
This passage I have read probably over a 100 time. I just recently figured out what is so cool about this idea of wisdom. I love how it’s described as an actual human or being of some sort. I almost even get the sense that at some points it is like a mother father role or that of an elder. She, wisdom is this she character. I almost think of my grandmother in a sense. I think that grandmothers are one of the wisest people on the plant. One because they have submitted for so many years to their husband and battled through children and their idiot husbands and yet they almost never complain. I can remember sometimes being at my grandmothers house and she would give me rules that I had to abide by. I now know that she was protecting me. What the beginning of this passage talks about and how the end pulls it all together.
God is brilliant. That really an understatement because I honestly don’t think that there is a word that can describe how incredible God is. Wisdom comes from God. This she character. I want her by my side. I want to listen to her. I want to heed her advice. This concept is pretty cool to me right now. I almost picture it as this body guard. When you listen to her advice he protects you but if you ignore her she offers nothing else. Never leaving your side but allowing things to happen. I often picture the scared shitless lion in the same room as me but now I will also be recognizing the ninja body guard that God sends with me.
Nos & Rehtaf, Dnabsuh 
How's it all going, boss?
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dang it, guys.. you mean that stuff doesnt end when you get married? I have a long way to go…
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HAHA That is exciting but stinks at the same time. I want to have complete victory in every area and i am starting to understand that its an unrealistic expectation. I will never competely understand my wife but your right its not about that but working through and communicating. Thanks for the encouragement, you never cease to amazing me with your wisdom! Thanks buddy!
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yeah, you hit on another issue that it took me a long time to learn and that I still forget too often. I use my male mindset to justify what I am communicating to her. It gets scary, but I have to try to think like her. One thing I've learned to do when she is venting about me not being around enough is to not go defensive, but to listen and try to learn from that what she would want from me. A lot of the time its not even something time consuming, but just verbal explanation that I do value her and what we do together. For example, lately Candi has been struggling with the fact that I get so verbally excited about rafting (I've got a couple trips coming up). She was beginning to feel like I was excited about them, but not about anything that we ever do together. I needed to verbalize to her that I love the stuff we do together too, even though its not adrenaline junky stuff. We walk dogs together every night and it genuinely is one of my favorite parts of the day, But I hadn't told her that. She needed to hear it and understand that I don't need her to go on crazy psycho trips, I don't really even want her to. I like the relationship we have, I'm not bored with it or her. We've almost been married 10 years and we still go through this stuff. It never ends. A good marriage isn't about this sort of stuff not happening, it's about communicating and working through it. Hang in there man
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I am trying but i get tripped up so easily. I did see your post on working too hard. That helps alot! I feel like i make her feel special but it may not be the way she needs or even as much as she needs.
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Cool man, When I get backed up spiritually, I end up in Psalms. When I get burned out in youth ministry, I watch my old Mike Yaconelli VHS cassettes. You have to have those sources that build you up. So live in Proverbs for a while. Last time I got there and went through Psalms, it took me like 2 months. It was a good time. Keep up the fightP.S. did you see my comment on your post about working too hard? just wanted to check cause it wasn't your newest post when I commented on it.
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