I don’t think that there is any other way to say it but I am back into the lion’s den again. I have fought the draw back to the pit I was once in before. Not seeking brothers to pull me out, set me on solid ground and keep me far away has been my downfall in the last year. I am there again. I am beginning to think about this idea of Rambo and have realized he is a wimp compared to this guy I have learned about in the bible. Benaiah. I am not sure why they haven’t made a bigger deal about him before. Maybe they have and I just haven’t been reading my bible enough to know. I can across this passage not on my own but through chapel. It was a message that I needed to hear and one that I need to constantly live by with sin. I need to fight it. Look the lion in the face and defeat it.
1 chron. 11
22 Benaiah son of Jehoiada, a valiant fighter from Kabzeel, performed great exploits. He struck down Moab’s two mightiest warriors. He also went down into a pit on a snowy day and killed a lion. 23 And he struck down an Egyptian who was five cubits[d] tall. Although the Egyptian had a spear like a weaver’s rod in his hand, Benaiah went against him with a club. He snatched the spear from the Egyptian’s hand and killed him with his own spear. 24 Such were the exploits of Benaiah son of Jehoiada; he too was as famous as the three mighty warriors. 25 He was held in greater honor than any of the Thirty, but he was not included among the Three. And David put him in charge of his bodyguard.
This dude is beast! I want to be like him when I come up against temptation. I want to roll over things like he did. The part that was fed to me and I think that is the craziest is the lion. He went down into the pit (on a snowy day) and killed a lion. Lions are crazy, up to 500 pounds maybe even bigger back then. Jaw pressure of ridiculous amounts and he just went in there on a non-surefooted day (cold and wet) and killed the lion. This is like recounting the of a super hero’s adventures. Battling things that are way bigger, way faster, way stronger.
I haven’t been the man I need to be because I have this thorn in my side like Paul. I do not do what I want to do.
Romans 7
14 We know that the law is spiritual; but I am unspiritual, sold as a slave to sin. 15 I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. 16 And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good. 17 As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in me. 18 For I know that good itself does not dwell in me, that is, in my sinful nature.[c] For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. 19 For I do not do the good I want to do, but the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing. 20 Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it.
That’s how I feel and in the morning I lay in bed soaking in my own pity like a sissy. I am so much stronger than this. I am so much bigger than this. I have had victories before. I have had stared the lion down. Why? Because my God is bigger. Because my God can conquer anything.
Lord keep me dependent on you. Help me to not fight my battles alone but with fellow fighters. I want to please you and not myself.
Nos & Rehtaf, Dnabsuh 
Hey man.. your brothers are here.. I havent been too good at keeping in touch lately, but give me a call if you want.
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