Best 5 Minutes

Nope, not talking about sex. I pestered the heck out of my dad for the last couple weeks to play basketball on Monday night with my normal crowd and he caved under the peer pressure. Not wanting to renig on the agreement he made he went with. The first five minutes went awesome. I was proud of him and it seemed to be going well. then he made a steal and tried to take off and ruptured his Achilles. In front of 14 guys my dad went down in a angry ball of fire and my heart didnt just sink it came out my ass. From one of my most memorable basketball experiences to one of the lowest feelings every. It is hard for me to even look him in the eye. In the back of my mind i know that this is nothing compared to what some people go through and this is repairable. There is just something about this that i cannot get the sour taste out of my mind. The feeling that you get when you know you did something terrible and someone found out. Or when you do something stupid like put your car in a ditch when just trying to turn around. My human faulty view of God is banging at the door asking why? I have not indulged in any porn in over a month and this is how you repay me? I have been \”good\” so you should be \”good\” to me. I know this is so faulty but its so hard not to think about it that way. I know that good will come of it but waiting is a bitch. As much as i hate over used clique verses it is time for one.

Romans 8:28
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.

I am one of these. One that loves him. I know that good is coming. I know he is faithfully to what he says. I know that he will follow through with what he promises. Faith of a mustard seed can move mountains. I want that faith. I want to go from knowing to full out, reckless, i don\’t care whose in my way belief. Give me that. I know this was short but i want to record as much as i could about this experience so that when good does come (and it will) I will know where i was in this moment of frustration.