While praying this morning, I asked God for confirmation that I am Moses, not the sorcerer. I do not care to be the one conjuring cheap tricks but the one God uses to speak the truth. It is not my truth but His truth. I want to be the mouthpiece, not the wise man.
I have been stuck in this situation several times in the last five years. My presence in the situation has led to others’ growing awareness that I get too much credit. I am currently in a position where the awareness is causing severe reality checks. Again I am the common denominator.
I often listen to the voice of God and my ego’s voice more than any other. Each voice has its agenda; listening to the wrong one will inevitably cause more harm than good. My flesh makes it nearly impossible to distinguish between the voice of God and my ego. To me, they sound almost identical. They both sound good and truthful. Both appear as though they will fix the current problem.
The last paragraph sounded like I would be able to give a few ways to help clarify the voices. I have no answers. I wish it were more clear to me. There are times when the things that come out are so spontaneous. My only explanation is God. At other times, I hear the ego spouting from a megaphone. These times are not as often as I would like. A majority of the time, these voices sound very much the same.
I may not have answers, but some tools enable us to tune our radios better. Scripture is by far the most helpful tool in this process. Community with others is the second tool that gives us clarity with the voices in our heads. However, both of these resources can be misused and remain useless. It is equally about the tools and how we use them to guide us.
The best part about these tools is that they enhance each other. Scripture used within the community makes the use of scripture much more impactful. A community without scripture is limited to “wise men.” The more awareness of the balance we must strike leads to the signal of God’s voice coming through louder and clearer than our egos. I do not necessarily mean the audible voice of God, but there are times when he moves in ways we do not understand.
Father, give me confidence in knowing when to listen to the voice and when to ignore it. Help me distinguish between the voice that seeks to satisfy my flesh’s desires and the voice that seeks to fill me with the spirit. Help me to run from being the wise man and run to being the mouthpiece. Let your words be the words I speak.
Nos & Rehtaf, Dnabsuh 