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There are no surprises in heaven. This is a thought that I have been breaking on for a week. It’s the inverse thought that most will think when they first see the title. I have time and time again heard the sayings that explain that not everyone who thinks that they are saved will beContinue reading “Surprise”

I don’t think that there is any other way to say it but I am back into the lion’s den again. I have fought the draw back to the pit I was once in before. Not seeking brothers to pull me out, set me on solid ground and keep me far away has been myContinue reading “Benaiah”

I wrote this last week but forgot to post it.   So basically I only have 20mins before practice but I figured that I would write as much about this as I could before I had to leave. I would have started earlier but I of course was distracted. Depression is something that I reallyContinue reading “Depressed”

It is pretty crazy what world views and beliefs that God … we as humans, twist around in our head. I was sitting at home watching church on TV and it was the week before’s sermon. It was on this concept of Linearity. To be totally honest I have never heard that word in myContinue reading “Law of Linearity”

I am not sure if this will turn into anything spiritual or not but I just have a thought in my head that I want to put down. Lately (last two days) at work I have because very unpleasant in my mind. I feel like a dick because there are people that are close toContinue reading “Unpleasantness”

It is kinda…well its pretty stinking sweet what God is doing in my life. I am blessed beyond belief. I think that is why I broke down last night. I am so blessed and at the same time I don\’t really feel like I either deserve it or even adequate enough to make the bestContinue reading “Juggling Act”

There is a difference between God and I. (obviously) I am speaking in reference to anger. I can remember even in the last year being so angry that I just want to rip some ones head clean off. Like the fit of rage that you just want to destroy anything in your close proximity. I can evenContinue reading “Dont Piss God Off”

I find it to be incredible what God does in a persons life. How many paths, turns, and outcomes that there can truly be. I got teary eyed a couple times in the last week. Maybe I am just a big baby and dont know how to express sadness in any other way or maybeContinue reading “Grown Men Cry (well at least I do)”

Well the title is pretty fitting for what my life has been about the last month. I have been pretty good purity wise. I am still screwing up but giving in less and being more intentional about the things i have. I sold both my old phone and my ipad which makes failing a wholeContinue reading “A Few Minutes”

I am continuing to understand how to have victories and what failures look like and how to conquer them. Not having a consistent weekly meeting/bro time kills me. I am a creature of habit and when I get bumped out of a routine I tend to fail. That then usually leads to me going wayContinue reading “Always Prepared”