Rodeo Business

A buddy of my had a great response when I asked if he would let me practice on him quoting insurance. He mentioned that he was “uninsurable” because of his underground rodeo business. This morning I was reflecting on the last two weeks of this new job. I honesty think it has been like being attached to a raging bull on a determined unpredictable path. The finish line is unknowable. The speed is impossible to control. The direction is useless to try because things pass by so fast that it is just a big blur. I can not figure out where God is taking me. What he is doing. Why it’s important. The funny thing is that I never knew those things. I only know them a tiny percentage of the time in the hind sight. I am bias to my own perceptions.

It is much harder when you are forced to admit you have no clue what, why, or how. All justifications are taken away. All rational thought is instantly irrational. All logic is useless. This place sucks. The safety bar I once gripped tightly simply vanished, or better yet was an illusion. In many ways I think having an underground rodeo business would be much safer than following God and taking care of people.